For many people, pin pointing their ideals becomes not so much an easy idea but more of a task that they could carry out with simplicity and understanding, for me, not so much! I have recently been challenged with quite a bizzare rollercoaster of events in which i do consider and should be tackled by actions within the upmost importance, however i can vaugley understand why i can not decided on a vivid method of initiating these actions effectivly! I feel that i do have to climb a mental ladder, with regards to how i go about similar future situtaions.
I very rarely blog, and its no lie, i find it hard to blog recently as i excersise during the day and then have very little if any motivation to do just about anything that is naturally required of me considering my current circumstances. When i do manage to get round to walking the pooch i constantly go over and over certain ideas and thoughts on how i am to overcome the upcoming months ahead of me and if that direction will take me through muddy puddles. Its not that i don’t want to blog, i would blog everyday if i could drag myself out of the house into mini adventures of socializing and forgetting that i’m no longer climbing that mental ladder, ‘what mental ladder?’ you ask? I will let you in on a lil secret, if i had to rate my current personality in terms of emotional levels, i would say that all characteristics rolled into one, on a 1 by 10 chart, 10 beingĀ moderately happy and 1 being,..well feeling poop, i rank in at about 3, and have done so for the last 2 months! Climbing this ladder is a sure thing, but its happening at a less than pacey speed, and to be fair, it dosen’t really need to hit me hard to allow me to realise you only live once!
Why do you rarely blog john?
I love blogging, i like the idea of technology and everything related to it, and i’m more than amused by api integration of web browsers, so a video blog is of the charts, in terms of sheer zaniness, if thats a word… well i’m using it anyway. I did one Vlog a bit back and all though i love the idea of installing a long drawn out source of attention into peoples hearts, i just couldn’t pull it off, i had to edit it, so i think we’ll scrap the simple vlogs as i just generally cant be bothered to vlog,, i would much rather take the longer more stressful technique of editing together multiple videos with daft satirical pop culture infused themes into it and treat you all once a month, oh and well give you highly informed yet silly normal blogs like this one.. yet again, once every week to two weeks, its just the way that obsessive compulsive order works!! When i say a bizzare rollercoaster, i mean to adress the facts that
- Me and Hailey have spent a total of about hours spent in waiting rooms of government buildings
- I have been caught of guard on my way to a friends party and suffered the consequences,
- I am struggling to meet the fitness requirements for the raf
- I have to remove a TATTOO and
- I have to try and sort out a new form of identification, preferably a new birth certificate.
Other bad news is that i could have a micro fracture on my faceplate due to the unfortunate incident that occurred on Saturday, as my face is in a bit of a state and is continuing to bruise and increase in coverage of my face and more specifically my nose. To be fair i kind of needed this wake up call from fate, but does it have to be now, now right when i’m on a pivotal turning point in life? I can’t be going for X-rays and attending court whilst i’m trying to get my tattoo removed and revising for my ast (Airman Selection Test), exercising heavilly and failing to appreciate how easy i’m recieving gamerpoints at the moment, oh yes! At the end of the day, i currently look forward to daft facebook responses from the likes of pip and jake (another gunner to be) and Shooting zombies on cod5 online, good times!
As for editing the new years footage, i’m starting to get back on that, it turns out i dont really have enough footage to make it catchy, and well good in my opinion of standard fassion, and that my friends, is quite high,,, why oh why did i choose a song with so many beats in it? (Some might say, ‘hey that should give you more substance to work with?’ and i will reply… ‘Read this blog, and you’ll see how tired i am!’) I will do a mini Introduction To everybody in the video, kinda like an opening scene from a televion sitcom, but more quirky.
That is all!
Stay classy Santiago!